Where I want to start telling
Holden signposts his insecurity by not being able to take control of his narrative. He WANTS to start at a particular place, but doesn’t just do it. He has to tell us that he ‘wants’ to, which makes us aware of the artificiality of his narrative.
Arguably, this is more natural and conversational than a direct, controlled, ‘it all started when…“ On the other hand, it could be read as jarring and uncomfortable. You decide.
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